07-17-2014, 04:27 PM
Blog post update (this was originally intended for the where do you work thread but I'm putting it here, because posting it here means that it's pre-established that this post is stupid in a self-aware way):
lol it's mid July and I still haven't gotten a job. Since June I've been applying to on average one place a day and still nothing since that 'interview' in April. Just turned in four yesterday and am filling out more. It's getting really pathetic since I've tried multiple things with no results. What's annoying is that there is so much I want to do but I basically have to wait around until I get a job which is a tremendous waste of time. I have many goals I am taking action on but am not getting results quickly enough. I've been getting college stuff sorted out but I need a job before I can really become self-sufficient in paying for it myself. The only reason I can 'pay' for my first semester is because relatives gave me a thousand dollars of 'graduation money'. So I'm basically an undeserving prick. Even then classes don't start for over a month so I'm just waiting around until then. As far as my musical goals go, my goal for this year was simply to become extremely good (so I can be ready next to year to actually do stuff). I am making progress but I am not becoming really fucking good quickly enough. Other stuff (like vocal coaching) I can't do until I get a job, as well as some other stuff I need. Plus no studios are excepting interns or anything so I just have to wait around for that too. And then of course I'm just at home all day except for when I'm applying for jobs because I can't really be doing anything else. While I'm at home I'm just practicing music and trying to become educated on various topics, which is not a respectable thing to do.
I have it good so I'm not complaining about that so this is more of a 'I could be doing so much beneficial work and I'm just waiting around' complaint. unny:
That's good and all but now it's time for some existentialist crisis shit: There are people I went to school with who have semi-established career paths, are in some cases married, and in a few cases have kids. Kids at 18 is IMO a bad idea, but there's something pathetic about the fact that many of my peers have sorted their lives out, while I'm just browsing the internet, reading a translated Quran just 'cause, and wondering why not even McDonald's will hire me. :confuz:
In other words I'm basically still just a pathetic kid but there's nothing I can do to change it overnight.
Discuss your thoughts about how you compare now with what your ultimate life vision is. :king:
lol it's mid July and I still haven't gotten a job. Since June I've been applying to on average one place a day and still nothing since that 'interview' in April. Just turned in four yesterday and am filling out more. It's getting really pathetic since I've tried multiple things with no results. What's annoying is that there is so much I want to do but I basically have to wait around until I get a job which is a tremendous waste of time. I have many goals I am taking action on but am not getting results quickly enough. I've been getting college stuff sorted out but I need a job before I can really become self-sufficient in paying for it myself. The only reason I can 'pay' for my first semester is because relatives gave me a thousand dollars of 'graduation money'. So I'm basically an undeserving prick. Even then classes don't start for over a month so I'm just waiting around until then. As far as my musical goals go, my goal for this year was simply to become extremely good (so I can be ready next to year to actually do stuff). I am making progress but I am not becoming really fucking good quickly enough. Other stuff (like vocal coaching) I can't do until I get a job, as well as some other stuff I need. Plus no studios are excepting interns or anything so I just have to wait around for that too. And then of course I'm just at home all day except for when I'm applying for jobs because I can't really be doing anything else. While I'm at home I'm just practicing music and trying to become educated on various topics, which is not a respectable thing to do.
I have it good so I'm not complaining about that so this is more of a 'I could be doing so much beneficial work and I'm just waiting around' complaint. unny:
That's good and all but now it's time for some existentialist crisis shit: There are people I went to school with who have semi-established career paths, are in some cases married, and in a few cases have kids. Kids at 18 is IMO a bad idea, but there's something pathetic about the fact that many of my peers have sorted their lives out, while I'm just browsing the internet, reading a translated Quran just 'cause, and wondering why not even McDonald's will hire me. :confuz:
In other words I'm basically still just a pathetic kid but there's nothing I can do to change it overnight.
Discuss your thoughts about how you compare now with what your ultimate life vision is. :king: